Once You Start Lying, It’s Really Hard to Stop

Who can say how I got started? I told one lie and then another and it just snowballed from there.

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A Moment I’ll Never Get Back Made Me Stop Choosing to Miss What Matters Most in This Life

I don’t want this moment back because I miss it. I want it back because I missed it.

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Why Attempting to Rebuild Your Marriage After an Affair is a Colossal Show of Courage

You won’t see it coming, the affair. It’ll blindside you, bring you to your knees, and leave you feeling like you’ll never recover from it. Getting up and moving forward, in whichever direction you choose, will be one of the hardest things you ever attempt to do. So incredibly hard, you’ll think it impossible. At least that’s how it was when it happened to me.

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I Ate Jealousy For Breakfast, with Some Envy Sprinkled On Top

I did it AGAIN. I gave in and had a heaping helping of jealousy with some envy sprinkled over-generously on top for bad measure. Within minutes I felt sick. And I know better. I know exactly how rotten my insides will feel just moments after I reach for jealousy and gulp it down. And I always gulp it down, because there is no savoring jealousy.

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The Too-Hard Way I Learned to Fight Against a Dangerous Level of Loneliness in My Marriage

I don’t give advice very often. Because I don’t really have any but also because I don’t think anyone really wants any. I think that within our difficulties, we really just want to be heard and feel loved.

But I do tell my story, in case hearing it will help you in yours. Because hearing the stories of others who had traveled down the same broken road I found myself on is what helped me move forward from infidelity when I wasn’t sure how.

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